That word

My mother received a possible diagnosis this morning. The word: cancer. It's a word that I've never heard before in regard to a member of my own family. It's a word that puts a shiver down the spine. It's a word that brings fear.

Today it's a word that I heard in connection with someone I love.

It's not a done-deal. There is the inevitable waiting for tests results. However we think we'll know more in 24 hours.

Mom is...shall we say...on the edge of frantic. The problem is, as an RN, she knows just enough to make her dangerous, at least to her own psyche.

So there are no answers, and there is surprisingly little to grip/clutch/hold on to. We pray, but this is going to be a very rough ride.